I want to thank each and every1 of you equally who still have chosen to stick around and follow this page even on my darkest days which obviously reflects as an almost forever lasting absence here on instagram.
Long story short- There’s been going on just way too much stuff for my poor human brain to deal with and one too many series of dramatic events to process in a short period of time. These past few weeks have been so rough that I feel nothing but drained from all of it.
See, I’m a thinker. A wonderer. Believer. I imagine things. I think too much about the past, and I bounce lots of ‘what if’s’ back and forth inside my head, it never gets silent you know. During these past couple of years, I’ve found myself more n more often from a situation- when I under a protest come to a realization that the things I used to enjoy before just won’t give me the same satisfaction I once did get, and that naturally leads me to having anxiety. What is this nonsense? How am I supposed to figure it all out by myself when my own worst enemy is as close as it gets? She’s literally under my skin.
I guess it’s common to feel empty, yet full of emotions. But I’m also easily affected by other people’s emotions. Or by the moon and the seasons. No wonder they call it as the ‘winter depression’ or having a ‘seasonal affective disorder’. Haven’t decided yet if it’s a gift or a curse, as they say.. Right now I feel cursed, but tomorrow I could be blessed. So I keep fighting for those tomorrow’s as long as I’m breathing cause funny enough, I’m not looking for the easy way out; I’m searching for the answers to my questions. I’m seeking for the beauty in everything. I’m developing inna field of forgiveness and patience.
To be continued... wait for the next picture 🌚